You know i Read very little and write much for some one who doesn't read paper

"... i don't know what to write to my blogger buddies.  Honestly everything is good.  there is much i could say.  that last blog i must have been frustrated or angry.  i feel calm, cool, and collected tonight.  So,  i will make this one a positive one so that the last one isn't the impression that the reader gets.. i hope your still reading this one.  Well anyway, i said to much back there but, i am not going back.  i am going to live a positive uplifting joyful life and nobody is going to hold me back.  i don't know what to say anymore in the blogs.  somebody is reading them .  i wonder.  oh .. well.. everything in my life is good.  i need to meet more people.  i have very few friends in real life that i hang out with and i feel so strange sometimes that even with them i feel like i am stranger.. but, it's probably all in my head. you know i am mentally ill.  i have to take pills for my brain because of what society has done with me.  What i might have done to myself.  I don't have any PTSD  anymore.  i am over everything and starting a new life..   thats why i wanted to blog tonight to make sure that it is a Positive Expression whatever it is that i am saying.  I feel like at the very least it can be positive and honest from the heart. I do care.  ... well that's good enough for the blog tonight.  Just know i want positive change and that i am Okey and that's the message.  Oh. .  and i smoke ..   and  i  research TZM stuff..   smoke ..  research.  Those are the two variable that are pulling me forward now.  i lost the chick.  it's just me and spot now in the entire 3 bedroom 2 bath home..  well.. i said plenty..   I love humanity.  and,  i love you.   And ,  we are ONE .   ONE  LOVE  ONE  HUMANITY ONE SPECIES  ONE FAMILY ONE WORLD !!!!!!!