Merry X-MAS

"Thew the holidays homeless wounded men walk the streets alone because of there mental illness no one will have them for Christmas Dinner. No nobody wants them to ruin christmas dinner with the family. So the mentally ill man huddles under the bridge at night wanting rum to warm his thighs. So, cold is the Christmas in Memphis. So warm indoors. And, cold outside. The warmth of the home fills imagination with wonder how I am so lucky to have a place to blunder. Independent of my parents I have my own space even though I am diagnosed with a mental illness I can function and be self reliant. Luck am I not to be the bum in the garbage can. Blessed are the ones who can be in the warm indoors during the holiday season. Give thanks to those loved ones far away that support you in the regular days as well has the holidays. For, a mentally ill person the holidays can be a trigger to mania. What I like to do when I am manic is clean my home and myself. Cleaning makes me feel better. I am diagnosed with OCD too. I have many labels and hurtles to overcome to speak with you online.
Thanks Goodness for the people who love you when no one else will. or did.

What did you do for christmas Dog? Is what you say.

I say.

"I lost it. I caved. I spent X Mas. On an escape. Time is so that I just want to escape.
I didn't go to my girlfriends house for dinner with her family. A man of my monster like hight and size doesn't fit very well in a house full of people. I am the outsider this Christmas. I wanted just to go into the future to spring."

"I spent X-mas at my new apartment in Bartlett. It is Spotties first Xmas and I didn't want to leave him alone. I wanted to spend Xmas in my new apartment with him as it is my first xmas in my new place."

and you say. "Hey, thats Ok Doug we love you anyhow."

"It is a white Xmas in Memphis very rare. People should care. On Xmas in the snow. We go to play with the dogs. I take my dog out to poop this morning wether it is Xmas or not. He is a great dog Spot. Got a spot marking on the top of his neck he is reddish in color with short hair. Spotty looks like my dog Dandy that I had in my childhood but, bigger and more expressive."

"I get kind of crazy around the holidays. Blessed is the man and the wrapping. So, grateful we are to get presents. We throw away the wrapper.
In a landfill it melts like a dead snake. So, wasteful are we to think.
That we should get what we want and not what we need. So, arrogant are we to bleed year after year. From the bank book to the store until we are in deep some more for the money system is built on owing something to someone else...

We don't owe each other anything. This time of the year would better be spent adding to storage of things we really need instead of want.
There is a man outside in the cold on Xmas but, it isn't me. But, so.. There are people that don't have anything. That's not me. But, so I wish they had as much as me. There are enough resources on the earth to supply everyone with my lifestyle of independence and function. We could all live comfortably.

Imagine it. You can't imagine it cause it's never been done before.

That would be my christmas wish that we all could have equality.
That each and everyone could have such a pleasant place to dwell all year around. Not, just the holidays. If the world outside of my door is cold and the inside is warm than can't we assume if that we wanted to keep every soul warm we need only duplicate the space within the door?

There are enough materials in the word to do this for every human being but, because of the money system it is not possible for it needs people to live outdoors for it to survive.

It is a beast not a pride. Money is evil. It destroys as a matter of business. If it didn't destroy things it wouldn't grow and that wouldn't make it money cause are dept wouldn't grow too.

Don't you think there is a better way? Can't we live in sanity? Can
you agree with me? Could you not talk at me?

Dingle Berries. That is what you are to me. Dingle berries. You are the little pieces of stuff my dog chews on the carpeted floor. I don't understand you at all. I gonna find me a mission. I am going to me something I believe in. I am going to try to mend the world you ripped a new ass hole in.

I am going to try to heal her and atone for our bad things that we do to our mother earth. I am going to try to fix it to make it sustainable. Something we can live with. But, So, Not. The money system you see? Barter system is clean.

The Barter system has a place for that mentally ill man out in the cold during the holidays. It has something for you and me. The barter system is clean.
It can heal this big old world. Don't you see? It sharing.