I gorged myself on your love

I am the type you know on the neighborhood block with my dog. The one who walks a lot. Bizarre. That I lived a life with mental illness with a car. All the shouting in the car drove me mad my friends. All the voices telling me different directions when really I need to follow my compass. Without these friends then I don't know me anymore and I don't care for drama. I did my best. Love. Loving you is a great thing but, I have friends from high school that you might be jealous of but, no my love that is foolish. My friends are from high school. All of you don't have such a long history. She is the best and I put down some rules for my friends. They are not to say your name or talk about you. I always do best at whatever I do. I'm a smart man life is good to me. No. Drama. I want only to exist. I want to be loved love love. See. I have to be free of the negativity that you bring to me and I don't want to loose you... I just want to have my friends. See? It's a mystery to me. Why we disagree? Friends are friends. We are all mentally ill. We have beautiful issues and space to work them out in a place. Why can't it be here? Crazy are we. So what to say. She fits like a glove over me. Don't you see? How are you going to score if you share my love? No. I store my love. I don't give away my love so easily as you that share. I am not I am. I am. And, I have an old soul. So many stories yet to be told. Of the young and the old. The play time land. The fantastic fantasy. What is going through your mind? Crazy? Your mentally ill too. So. Join us please. We are mentally ill and have brain damage. Will you help me? I am very smart and can help in a lot of ways. I have performed all sorts of jobs.
Evolution has made me good at invention. I evolve with my environment taking objects from it to create tools to build heaven. It is a honeycomb hive. A heaven. My heaven. I wish everyone had a heaven like I do...
I wish everyone feels love like I do... I wish that I had a mug for my doug and a hug with a love a dove dove snug in the rug with doug. I wish. I wish. I knew what it means to be with me. I don't understand him at all my lord. He is too tall my lord. The bell maker. The cell shaker. The freedom bagpipes singing over the meadow so green. Irish Green. Like the stuff of movies and legends how he got here I wish I knew him better my love. Me. What doesn't it mean to love me. I am the best lover to be a friend that gives until the end. A lucky four leaf clover so modest in demeanor you would not believe he is a giant until you meet him there on the stone staircase to heaven. My honey is heaven to your love. You like me? I like you. Lets get along together in harmony. Peace to truth for all the world to see what it means to be free man. Can you see that water flowing down old river. How he whispers to his creatures what to do in times of wonder. To blunder is to stupid is what they tell me. Both, side pulling stretching me in two different directions. Why can't they be one? Grass Hoppa jumping to fast for me old man river it makes me want to catch a leave flowing with the river down to the bottom. The things stupid things you think you only want to make things better. Grass Hoppa. You can not put a value on such things as love. You can't destroy things as strong as love. Friends of yours know this too. Why, would you talk to me about nothing you know about? Grass hoppa.

Hey pretty don't you want to take a ride with me

"Sure sweeter than honey. Can you feel me love you? Hey Pretty is what I am listening to by POE. She is my favorite artist. A muse. Interesting how deep her songs are. Now the song changed to It's not it's you.

You ride along your square four way intersection and boom. You get in a car accident and you wonder why it's always the other guys fault. It's freaky how self center and materialistic the monetary system is.

I don't understand why you block heads can't understand the simple math involved in the theory. If only people would take me seriously and see past the body.

I stand 6 3 muscular and athletic with three different colors of hair and a 5 oclock shadow. I am dark. I can think the worst. But, I choose not to. I choose to be positive. The positive people are the ones making all the changes.

I'd like to build a honeycomb subway system. Down underground in the comb everything goes. We smoke freely and watch the smoke ride the wind up out of the Man Cave.

Wine is fine. Burgers and herba. But, that's it. I can't do the funky kicks anymore. I like to blog. It is just the information you want to put out there and your more free of worry...

I always loved to write. I seem to be a scribe. Oh... My goodness.
I have my own cartoon and Movie.
Doug or Douglas is a favorable name in there times of square people come together to build something fantastic I challenge you this generation to leave an Architech Style for this error or era. See I can please my drive to advocate for a better system. You know I have been advocating since I was 13.

That's when I found the artifact that convinced  me of the rightness of my world over yours. My subway will be a comb a complete city underground. Impervious to what goes on the surface. A genius like me can do a beautiful job at putting the little peaces together.

Some words on the internet so time what's on my mind. Coffee. Selling my world to the world. That is what I do everyday.
So, you say you are interested E mail me douglasgorin@gmail.com
Beg, you say that you don't understand. Clarity is Clear.
It is what it is. You see. Actually the square world disgusts me sometimes.....

We bow down and stop for a light. Get in car accidents like it a date. About the amount of time for some really unlucky fellow. You see what I am saying?
I talk through these fingers about different worlds. Better Worlds.
Now I am listening to who's got the herb by 311. Listen along if you please.

We stop at red signs. On the road the shaking of the brain at these stops confuses us so nice.

The shaking of your brain in your skull each time you stop and go. Then Stop and go. What if I could make you all young again in your body like the fountain of youth. Well the body has needs. The brain require care to keep focused on your mental heath. Cause, if you ain't got that then what do you have?

311 got the herb and you can't avoid that. Listen. Rock your head.
I don't what no one dead. Rock that heads down up again ok.. Stop.

If you stay at a light long enough you loose your attention making the decision harder for you when accelerating the car.

I will never understand you square people. It's feels good to smoke herb. I love it. It's great. Yes! You see. Actually. Your brain gets scrambled when you stop and go at a light or sign and get brain damage. You take pills to sleep at night. Then take the pill to stop the pain of the brain damage you get by driving stopping and starting waiting and accelerating. Not to mention the air quality and gas fumes you are inhaling. And, you think a little herb going to make my life happy. It will. I advocate for giving herb to mentally ill people as the silver bullet cure all.

You think about the brain damage year after year of the health value of having a clean place to have a habitat. The air is not good who cares anymore? So, you see there is my way or the highway is going to be ugly. Understand? I design to please. All I ask in return is that you read.

I want to change you all. I want to change the world to my way of the honeycomb hexagonal system (VINE) like infrastructer that hangs low like the grapes of a very good wine. The t jesus of all wines sweetness and honey.
No, I don't mean Money I mean love that is the ticket to the circus ride.

Where did you go? What's your Pleasure?

"Now I can sit back and write about this place"

"Right Now I am leaving my home to go to a new home. And, that means I can sit back and write about this place called the woods. The woods is where the big dog's of Memphis make our deals. Barter system. And, when get back everything will be Ok. Cause, on the streets of Memphis the kings are watching on the clock tower. The kings watch and wonder what it is all about. These squares...?
The honeycomb is much sweeter. You sweat more that makes you thinner and beautiful. The Comb Challenges you to be at your best. It's a shame and a wonder. Why? It's a blunder. These squares. If I could grant someone there last wish and it was me it would be for you to see the blunder. The squares air is the hexagon. It is the seed. Can't you see? It is what it is.

If I had a million dollars I would give it to me a I will fix all these things. No?
If I was king.
Doug king of Memphis.

I would take of all these problems because with the best mind on the project it is more likely to get complete. To make it!

{Please' I have made it!

I can live on cyberspace in my dream I am a bell maker. I live near coastal france. I have three sons. I love my life and my wife. I had a job. Back then I was a bell maker for the church. We made beautiful works of are. Inlaid. Special Script.

Lucky. That's what they call me. And, They are right to think that I have lived 70yrs of life for a 30 yr old. I am so wise at such a young age. I can do is the attidude of my geration. If I can't do it. Who can? My Generation everyone wins. Still. Listen. There is no greater generation than the 30 yr olds of America. We are the youth of a powerful nation. Our views shape nations. What we do say is matter. The first youth with the internet and lots of free time.

You See? Actually? I am not the blame for worlds disorder. I fix it though. My spacial ableity can not be messed with. That is my supper power. I can find a place for everything for I value empty space for more that an object. You undersand? I am not like them?

Why did I put a question mark there?
I am a lot like you on meds from the beginning. Smarter. Far are the thoughts in my head the skip over the information wave like a stone over water to reach out and talk to the creator.

"Now I shed tears instead of laughter"

"How long before it becomes an obsession? I can assure you nothin bad will happen to you. I don't want to hurt you. I'm mad but, not crazy. I think of everything we went threw together and ask myself how is this happing? After all the shit we have gone threw... Is there no such thing as love? Is this it? I don't know how I am going to meet anyone and go threw as much shit with them as I did you. It doesn't even seem possible. I don't think I will ever be as down as when I met you. Everything else will just seem shallow compared to what you have seen me threw. I don't have to thank you. You know I care. It's just so surreal to think it's over now and I have to find something else to do. I am not the type to fall in love so easy as you. It took me a while to feel what we call love and I don't know how I am going to do it again without you. You say it's ok. Don't worry. How can you? If you loved me wouldn't you be sweating bullets right now too? How can it be? You let go of me. I do commend you on keeping your word with me. You said if I ever got with Leslie again it would be over. So, out of all the things you said that didn't hold up that one thing broke the damn. Well if that is all it took then there must be something in you that wanted out. It's kind of funny I don't really feel the same. I guess you call it insanity. Loving you over and over. Insanity doing the same thing over and over. I guess maybe it is. But, it was good and I loved doing it over and over. I don't want to change. I don't want to go out and do the bar scene or the single thing. I am being forced to now and it's hard. My heart really isn't in it. I would rather be loving you but, you say that's insane. Not changing is crazy. I really think being on tv changed you and you saw that men wanting you was an opportunity for you to move up. Some man is sleeping with my woman. It took forever just to be allowed in her house. I love her heart. I loved her very much and now some other man got what I worked so hard for. Ironic. You were worth it. I will always remember you the way you were. The way you were before being on TV made your head big and changed. Maybe I changed and wanted more too. I wanted you. But, I couldn't have you the way you appear to me in my dreams forever. Old man time is a Bastard. I wish I could have that moment forever when I made you laugh that was all that mattered. When I first met you and thought my parents were paying you to be with me. Now I shed tears instead of laughter.

"Interesting that we don't all feel love"

"I am listening to John Mayer's 'Heartbreak Warfare' turn it on if you have Grooveshark. I feel no pain for I am loved. Can't we put shoes on everyone? Can't we put glasses on everyone? Can't we? If we love our fellow folks. Can't we form a circle and have a smoke? Can't we all hold hands and share a joke? We are civilized at all. No, we are't Civilized at all. Compare us to any other thing and I think in the end you will agree that we are not in sync. We are not one we haven't even begun to be Civilized. Are hearts are open bleeding blood on the ground and were is the voice of the sound? Mental illness must be everywhere. How can we not care? Hurting people everywhere. Letting bombs it in daycare how can call ourselves Civilized? More love to the one who speaks. More love to him. More love to the one who can't partisipate. More love to her. We need everyone to love man as they do....

"All-right! I can write more about our beloved Douglas Allen Gorin

"All-right! I can write more about our beloved Douglas Allen Gorin. I have an interesting existence in my role in life. It can be played here is cyberspace. There is a place I go when I'm stressed out called the honeycomb. It were I hide my wii. I love to play my wii. Apple is really great two. I like Google. EEE. I am a tech guy. I can do all of my work right here in the cyberspace. You understand I am at home and my actual job is just being a good citizen help old ladies across the street. Yes, I am born on the first of march 1977. Very luck me. I have always had the luck throughout my life the attribute of luck has come into play so many times that I am wondering if I am just in a game. So, But, You see my delimma. I worry that I have some sort of homing device on the back of my neck and the authorities are controling it like a puppet on a string. But, I know better than that to assume anything anymore...
I really don't know what really it is all about is preparing for the worst case scenerio manically slimming my bags of fatty acids.
I don't really think you care about what my ENVIRONMENTAL HISTORY means. If you did this is what happened in a bullet form.........
@3/1/77 I am born
@parents break up almost immediately 
@mom stays in Memphis Dad runs back to Nashville to his Parents
@Sees Father only a few times a year on a long drive to Jackson
@New father help Mom take suite to Old father
@Mom and old father split up
And, that is as far as I will take it. I learned a lot from having so many dads.